17 days and counting

17 days and counting, who knew it would go so fast?! I was talking to a friend of mine here today and realized we have been here for 292 days- it’s incredible. What a journey it’s been! I have been doing some reflecting lately. It’s crazy to think about what I’ve learned in all this time, more importantly how deeply the Lord has worked in my life. I’ve had hard moments where I’ve seen parts of myself I didn’t want to admit existed. But God has proved himself gracious and faithful in every moment. I’m so glad that the Lord never leaves us, it’s been his presence that has been my constant reassurance, and hope; not just in Argentina, but in life. I am so thankful for his salvation; He is so sufficient and so good. I was writing in my journal this week of the things I feel that I have learned about myself in my time here, so here goes:

1.     I’m not humble

2.     I’m not wise

3.     I’m bad at being independent

4.     I’m always completely and totally in need of Jesus: For words, for humility, for strength.. for everything.

5.     I learned I have SO MUCH more to learn than I knew

6.     I leaned I’m not patient

7.     It’s hard to be kind all the time

8.     How to be real with people

9.     I’m selfish

10. I’m not right very often

11. I learned about the great necessity of prayer

12. I saw God faithful, powerful, loving, and correcting

13. I learned the importance of never giving up

14. I’m learning complaining never edifies

15. I am learning what a gift time truly is- not to take it for granted

16.  I have so much further to grow and so much more to change

17. But most importantly I learned that God is my rock, through it all He stands strong for me in my every weakness- I learned so much about the great sufficiency of my God. To wait, and be satisfied in him, because he is so worth waiting for.

It’s funny, cause it’s not so much Argentina that has drastically changed my life, it’s only been a tool in the hand of my God. Sure hard situations have forced me to cling whole-heartedly to Him because otherwise I would have drowned in bitterness, but it’s been him who upheld me and grew me- to Him be all the Glory. Even still I know I have so much further to grow.

Pray for me, pray that I would love others so much more than myself. Pray that the Lord would keep me humble, that he would make me wise, dependent, in need of him, that he would challenge, edify and give me the gift of endurance. All the while I pray He gathers every soul to himself for His glory, may He be mighty to save, and may we glorify Him with all that we are. May the God and rock of our Salvation be exalted.

17 more days: Pray that I will be all here, and with my whole heart I would glorify him, not just in these days, but in all my life. I love you all, and I can’t wait to see your faces again.

“I love you, O LORD, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call upon the LORD who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.”  ~ Psalms 18: 1-3